it’s understandable

I was angry and ready for a fight until he called

Then my heart was again ready for flight, I started to fall

I was a nervous wreck by the end of week

Not sure whether to go down fighting or turn the other cheek

The excitement, I’m told, was all over my face

The emotion called love tends to blot out time and space

So when I saw him and smiled like I did

I let myself just bathe in the joy, back to being a kid

And afterwards when it came time to really talk

He took me down the incredibly difficult road he had to walk

The silence was intermittent and full of such pain

One would rather spend a night sleeping in the rain

You can only forgive and you can’t help but cry

That through his pain, he hardly even tried

Left outside The Circle to your own devices

Would you hold strong against all your friends’ advices?

The pieces are still fragile and yet to be mended

But I’m glad we spoke and made peace and no one pretended.

23-Oct-09

Confusion divides my thoughts

Between what is right

And what I want

No one can help me now

Tell me which way

Or tell me how

Because it’s my heart, my mind

I know where the story starts

And what I was hoping to find

1-Oct-09

Hosanna on highest

To the Mighty and finest

Who reigns in my ‘dom in eon and age

Great in action and on page

For chronicles have been written

And all hearts should be smitten

For the King is more than just one

A trinity with the Spirit and the Son

Who gave His earthly life

In painful sacrifice

As at the time He was an equal

And not Himself on high… regal

And bow on knee, bended thus

Give all praise, it is a must

For you and me:

We wouldn’t be

If not for Him

All things perfect… all is He.

26-Sept-09

How can a touch drive someone mad?

Weak in the head but strong in the mind…

I know what I want and I know what I must find

In the man of my dreams

Quick to make me laugh and of quality: supreme

How can your heart not break?

Working with the folks I do…

Each is much more broken than you

And yet they smile and sing and jump for the gifts you bring

How can she live with so many men around her?

He’d have to be strong, the one she found her

For a lesser mortal couldn’t do it…

Wouldn’t be able to find where he fit…

She just wants to be happy then?

Yes, surrounded by loved ones and friends

Able to give joy where she finds sorrow

Able to offer a plan for tomorrow

She has a lot of names

And often gets caught in endless games

But her head’s screwed on right

And she knows when to fight

And when to let it go

When to cry

And when not to let her feelings show…

15-Sept-09

Living in our Babylon

We cannot exist together speaking two different languages

The pastor even said so

We cannot go on living as we do if I cannot understand you

You can’t read the language of my heart

And I can’t read from a distance so far apart.

You don’t hear the words of a scared woman

And I don’t hear, won’t hear the doubts if you don’t open your mouth to speak.

What path have you taken

And can it be mine?

You are all alone there and seem to be fine

And it worries me to notice

The pastor said understanding is a result of speech

So just how much silence will you keep

Before I give in and walk on by?

Before the tears begin to cry

Tell me something, tell me why?

We keep waiting and waiting for more words from me

Although I love you comes easily

Where is the proof that it’s not just words?

Simple to man

Like flying is to birds.

Talk to me now, to keep the peace

Saying anything at all to put me at ease.

14-Sept-09